Inktober 2019| Day 5: build

you can spend years building yourself up
to not care, to pretend to not care
i did
until I really didn’t anymore
they don’t matter

they don’t matter
she doesn’t
her comment on your outfit doesn’t
he doesn’t
his text back REALLY doesn’t

but if all of them don’t matter
how can I?

can I make space
in the absence of many
in a void of 1
devoid
Of a second person
another breath

because it feels like
i build myself castles
flanked by stones
they threw at me

now the impressive building
That makes for a great
passing view
is patient, awake
gently lulling itself
with hushed tones
Of gentle placating
Echoing down empty halls.